Yesterday I posted about perseverance and persistence, two attributes that I think are very important and that I would like to implement in my life. It has been a week and a half since I was discharged from the eating disorder treatment center, and not being in school this semester, I find myself having a lot of time on my hands that I don’t know what to do with. Well that’s not exactly true, I do know how I would like to spend my time: starting a flower garden, learning to play the guitar, applying for jobs, spending quality time with my friends, writing. I guess the problem is I have no one telling me to do these things, so when things get hard, I let my anxiety take over and I stop trying.
But I no longer want to abandon my progress when things get difficult. I want to run outside instead of on the treadmill even though I’m afraid of the neighborhood dogs barking at me, I want to apply for jobs that work towards things in life I’m passionate about, like education, even if there’s a possibility I won’t get it. I want to utilize the healthy and beneficial coping skills I’ve used in treatment to stay in a good place in my recovery.
So how can I work towards perseverance and persistence this week? Well first I can start by defining what these two attributes mean to me. I’ll start with perseverance. Perseverance is the steadfast ability do keep doing something despite it’s difficulty, in essence it is never giving up through challenges or difficulty, staying brave and not letting insecurities or doubts overcome you. Persistence, is similar, the continuation of an action, continuing to walk through a desert even in the unrelenting heat.
I will work towards perseverance and persistence this week by the following:
- continuing even when things get challenging. Eating that morning snack even if ED sparks up suddenly telling me not to. Going to the job interview and giving it my best, even if I’m nervous that I won’t get it.
- setting goals and planning (weekly blog posts, making plans with friends, making it a goal this week to learn more chords on the guitar).
- active patience, meaning approaching patience as taking the necessary steps towards a goal with integrity and endurance without expectations of perfection, easiness, quickness or “shoulds”, allowing mistakes and acknowledgement and acceptance that there will be bumps along the way.
- it is okay to be conscious of time, but to the best of your ability to stay in the moment. when it comes to time, this is also where fate gets to have some sort of role.
- asking myself “why?”. Why do I want to write? Why do I want this job? It is important to be mindful and honest with yourself as well as others.
- and finally, don’t concern yourself overly with the end goal, try your best to stay in the moment and believe in yourself.