A Promise To My Body
~written in the early days in PHP
Dear Body, February 8, 2018
I promise to no longer abuse you as I have done in the past
Body, I trust that you know what to do with the food I feed you
I trust that you know best when it comes to my nutritional needs in order to be a lively, healthy and strong individual
Body, I promise that I will respect, trust and love you
I promise I will treat you in such a way that will enable us to work together instead of against one another
I promise that I will try my best to not compare you to other bodies, because everybody’s needs are different
Body, I promise that even at times when I doubt and curse you, I will return to compassion because I know now that you’ve only ever been there to help me thrive, without you everything I am would be impossible
And body I apologize to you wholeheartedly, I hope you can forgive me
I apologize and I promise that someday, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow but someday I will learn to love you unconditionally
I promise everyday I will work my hardest to appreciate you for everything you’ve done for me, everything you continue to do for me, and in the future what you will do for me because without you I am nothing
On hard days, like today, I read this to myself to remember just how crucial taking care of myself truly is. On bad body image days I read this poem and I’m reminded that my body is not working against me, it is working with me. I shall honor it, and in return it will propel me towards my hopes and dreams. And after, as I did when I first wrote this poem a few months ago while I was still at the PHP program, I will use the following mantra to bring me back to earth
I love my life. I love my body. I love myself. I love the people in my world. I love the beauty of the world we live in.
Keeping fighting. It is worth it.